CARPE DIEM

It's about time!

 rosprynn (c) 2005

Did you hear? Big Ben is not ticking this weekend! Horrors! And this weekend we get to "fall back" as we turn the clocks back. It's all about 'time'. But what IS time?

Time is a human concept and depending on where you are in the calendar of your life, time can seem to stand still, or race by. Last year my watch broke and it was an interesting experience. I chose not to get it fixed, and for a while I lived in what I chose to call "God's time"! For that 'time' I deliberately did not live each day according to any clock, but instead lived by a whole different rhythm. Yes, of course I was able to do that because I didn't have a boss clock watching or a child demanding to be fed on her tummy's schedule.
But it really made me pause (take the time?! grooooooooan!) to think about how much time we all spend governed by a self-imposed schedule, or a schedule set by others.

Even though I did not have a watch, I became aware of how many clocks and time pieces there are in the world. Hard to ignore.

But, for me, to live in the moment was an absolute freedom. So many poems and songs have been written about time, but for me my watch-less period was a letting go of all time constraints. Instead of stressing about what I was supposed to be doing at such and such a time, I was free to follow my own rhythm. And yes - I have come to see that my impatience is born of my concept of time. Instead of berating myself "well it is time for such and so....", and getting frustrated that what I had set as a schedule was not working to my time plans, (ie my book published waaaaay before now!) I came to know that, within the larger scheme of things, all DOES evolve, happen, in God's time. :)

I came to understand that being impatient, racing to perform according to some external time clock adds nothing to the quality of this life I have. Most of you have heard me say I am a slow learner, but even that expression is predicated on some time reference that I have set upon myself, or a standard dictated by others. Yes - I am as old as the hills (and then some :)), and yes, I am still working on the patience thing (yes - it IS painful - still - to even use that word...rofl) but I now concentrate on making the best use of each minute in the NOW (another word in the 'time' lexicon!) knowing that the accumulation of ALL the minutes in this life - my life - strengthens my acceptance, my faith in the greatest Timekeeper.

Maybe we should all try (dare I say "for a time"?) and live 'watch free'; put our energy into the 'now', instead of stressing about a time we haven't reached yet. It's about time!

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